But, if he asks if I can lend my back for a moment because that girl leave him but he asked me not to hurt her, I would not let him my back —————- because I do not want to waste my time. I would not waste time because I would still run after his girl and beg her not to leave Miguel…for if he is hurt, I am hurt twice. And I cannot handle to see him in pain. Ako na lang masaktan. Huwag lang siya…

“There is a part of every little girl’s heart that envisions her prince charming.” —- Cathy Babao-Bulla’s daughter

Every time I read this line, all my thoughts of having my ‘ideal’ prince charming pop out —- I want a man who is like this or like that, someone who could do these things or those things. I mean, I am still a girl created by the world’s utmost Father, God, so I deserve to be loved by a man who would care for me no matter what odds come our way and who would be there for me every time I feel that the whole world turn its back to me. A man who would stand before me even if I am always at my worst and stormy mood. 😀

However, sadly, loving is not all about happiness. It is more on pains, heartaches and thoroughness. And if fate would play in an unfair way, you would meet and love someone who is a zero-pointer on your ideal-man-checklist! And this is what happened to me… TSK!

The following are what he is doing that is a super no-no in my ideal checklist. As in, I you’ll see it, these are the things which would really turned me off.

What I feel: I am his last priority

He always arrives late during our meeting time and let me wait not for minutes but for hoursSSSSSSS.

He ask me for datessss. He would set everything from what time he’ll fetch me, where we would go and what we would do, but in just an instant, all of these, let consider these things romantic in a sense, would be moved to another day. Or worst, would just be a planned-date-without-implementation. TSK!  Why? Because if his mother, his school requirements, his stressed body would prevail, he would cancel his planned date. Being an understanding girl, I would always accept it with a fake smile. If he only knew how much it hurts when an on-hand expectation would not be fulfilled. Hai…

Deadsma on my txt msgs

It is said that the worst feeling a texter could feel was that of waiting for someone’s text message in the morning (yon bang makaalala lang). But, it turns out that even upon laying your bed at 11:59pm, there is no sign of him/her sending you a message. L

Well, I always throw him a message to greet him all time of the day and to ask him how he was doing (even though I was not subscribe to unlimited offers or I have a 0.00 message from *102# —- nakikitext ako) But how come, he cannot manage to send me a simple g’pm or g’am…or sige na nga, even a simple ‘hi’ and ‘hello’ would do. Pero, minsan wala pa rin talaga!

Worst, it is not just for a day. 2-3 weeks, there is no sign of him communicating. Then when he texted me, he would not even manage to apologize for making me worried that much. (well, oonga pala, I do not have the right to be right during those times).

Pero, ewan ko ba. Lakas tama ako. I have never been this much worried to a guy, I have never been jealous when a guy is beside with a girl in a picture or is with a girl in a seminar, I never been smiling like this just because of a guy, and I have never been this happy because a guy came into my life and it turns out that it is one of my life’s greatest blessing. Maybe, he was reallr good in archery because he placed his arrow’s heart directly at the center of my heart. XD

I can’t promise that I’d make the world’s most perfect princess. But I would assure him that I would love him completely —- as best as I can.

Well, if God would permit that you and I became us, I would cry in MOST happinessEST, to the max, to the fullest, to the super-duper, as in major major. LOL! 😀

And when that day comes that I was not the one he love because someone came and he loves that girl more than he loves me, then I’ll be brave enough to smile in front of the two, brave enough to talk to the girl and say, “Promise me you would lo love him that much or else, baka bawiin ko siya sa’yo and if that happens, I’ll make sure he would not come back to you.”

But, if he asks if I can lend my back for a moment because that girl leave him but he asked me not to hurt her, I would not let him my back —————- because I do not want to waste my time. I would not waste time because I would still run after his girl and beg her not to leave Miguel…for if he is hurt, I am hurt twice. And I cannot handle to see him in pain. Ako na lang masaktan. Huwag lang siya…Because,

I love him with all that I am.

(haha.drama ko.shemz! :D)

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